wet paint

i am so careful these days with the wet paint
it moves in thin lines carefully
not to be smeared by clumsy hands

i am the engineer of this paint
guiding bristles in unison
always confident

i am the alchemist of this wet paint
concocting colors from mud and earth and mineral
guilding accents in flaked crystal

and now my paint is dry and i reflect
what experiences brought me to this place
and what was sacraficed by covering it all in wet paint