just need to vent frustration


why is it that life can be such a lesson...that heartache be physical hurt..... that lovers can lie.....that communication can break down.......why is it that pretty girls are supposed to have it so good ....that if your sexy then don't get depressed, cause it's so unbecoming....why is it that men are ruled by their dicks ....that marriage can ruin your life....that money can give you freedom or pin you under it like a giant gold circus cage.....how could i have ended up in this place......i am generally a happy person.....my ego lives in a soft silky california king in my heart of hearts.....but right now all i feel like doing is crying.... becaue for all the myspace friends....all the real friends past and present....there are no hugs......no real understanding.....so in lay here looking out the window at the beautiful fruits of my labor ....and cry while holding my breath....cause i like the adrenaline that comes from suffocation....cause i can fuck better than you in my sleep.....